一个人在异乡过年，真的是不好受。
虽然已经是第三次了，这次过得比较惨。
第一次，在日本与Emily一起度过。
我记得那年年初一还下大雪，害得我们都不能去中华街。
可能年纪还小的关系，而且就快能回马来西亚了，所以感觉还可以。
第二次，在印度一个小村子里与儿时的玩伴Jian一起度过。
那时大学毕业，一个人背起背包到印度晃了3星期。
我还记得那年的除夕夜，我们在镇上唯一有卖中华料理的餐馆吃了一叠叉烧饭。
然后，我们还一起谈天说地，快要天亮才甘愿去睡觉。
那一年，我体会到了一个人在毫无边界的沙地上看满天星的寂寞。
不过，那一年的新年还好，至少我知道再过一个月我便会踏上家的归路。
今年，真的过得很狼狈。
总觉得少爷不能理解我为什么那么的懊恼与寂寞。
他可能还会觉得我不够理智，太小孩子气呢。
从昨晚他让我回房睡时就能看得出，一点也不体贴。
这个时候，就让我任性一点，不可以吗？
发了那么多牢骚，还是要祝大家新年愉快，身体健康！
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Monday, January 26, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
无题
最近天气真的是越来越寒冷了。 
NS,摄氏零度是什么意思？
这整个星期都为了啃Appadurai所写的Modernity At Large而搞到精神衰弱。
真的是读到我：apa tu???
自从我上次的反对以后，少爷再也没有提起过要办取大学宿舍的事情了。
既然他不提，我也别挑起话题吧？
一动不如一静。
不过，自从那以来，他对我的态度大有改变。
可以感觉到他的一言一语，一举一动都从满着疼爱与纵容。
而且，在一起的时间也比较多了。
好现象。
我的厨艺也越来越厉害了。
上个星期作了：日式咖喱，白萝卜焖黄尾鱼，马铃薯焖牛肉。
不错吧？
呵呵，宝宝的最爱，雪莓娘。上个星期偶然看到它在Lawson里，毫不犹豫地把它买下来。
好好吃！
超送给我的圣诞节蛋糕。谢谢！
我来也肉干三文治。yum yum !!
Friday, January 9, 2009
the first ordeal of the year ?
昨晚追看在机场买的实话小说，“Life and death in Shanghai",看到4点眼皮再也撑不开时才甘愿关灯睡觉。
加上外面下雨的关系，我睡到下午2点才甘愿起床。
一上网，已经在lab的少爷便msg我。
说了一些没关系的话之后，他终于切入正题。
他收到大学的联络，说他可以申请在大学附近的宿舍。
他也很烦恼每天都得花上2小时去上学。
少爷说，他想搬去那里。问我介不介意。
我当然介意。十分的介意。
现在我们住在同一个宿舍，有时一天都没见到一次面。
加上他在lab的时间也越来越长，我们也比较少一起吃晚饭了。
通常，我们只是在睡觉前我去他房间用吹风筒时聊一下当天的事情而已。
Being able to know that he is near to me, give me a sense of relief and security.
His existence is more than just a lover, somehow, he also functions as a subsidence.
After a long day out, knowing that I am coming back to place that belongs to us makes me relief.
Knowing that I can meet him at the end of the day sweeps away my tiredness.
I understand he is exhausted from his long-hour research and traveling time, I try my best to provide a peaceful environment.
I prepare dinner sometimes, bring over hot tea and dessert, refrain from complaining, try to talk about some cheerful things to keep his spirit up.
我想我这次真的是爱惨了。
maybe Jonny is right about me: I am such a 贴身药布.
Even though sometimes I am annoyed by his blunt behavior and saying,
Even though sometimes I hate he pays more attention to the monitor and tv rather than my conversation,
At the end of the day, we still embrace each other with love and forgiveness.
A sense of belonging.
A sense of relief.
A sense of secure and safe.
A sense of being loved.
A sense of togetherness.
加上外面下雨的关系，我睡到下午2点才甘愿起床。
一上网，已经在lab的少爷便msg我。
说了一些没关系的话之后，他终于切入正题。
他收到大学的联络，说他可以申请在大学附近的宿舍。
他也很烦恼每天都得花上2小时去上学。
少爷说，他想搬去那里。问我介不介意。
我当然介意。十分的介意。
现在我们住在同一个宿舍，有时一天都没见到一次面。
加上他在lab的时间也越来越长，我们也比较少一起吃晚饭了。
通常，我们只是在睡觉前我去他房间用吹风筒时聊一下当天的事情而已。
Being able to know that he is near to me, give me a sense of relief and security.
His existence is more than just a lover, somehow, he also functions as a subsidence.
After a long day out, knowing that I am coming back to place that belongs to us makes me relief.
Knowing that I can meet him at the end of the day sweeps away my tiredness.
I understand he is exhausted from his long-hour research and traveling time, I try my best to provide a peaceful environment.
I prepare dinner sometimes, bring over hot tea and dessert, refrain from complaining, try to talk about some cheerful things to keep his spirit up.
我想我这次真的是爱惨了。
maybe Jonny is right about me: I am such a 贴身药布.
Even though sometimes I am annoyed by his blunt behavior and saying,
Even though sometimes I hate he pays more attention to the monitor and tv rather than my conversation,
At the end of the day, we still embrace each other with love and forgiveness.
A sense of belonging.
A sense of relief.
A sense of secure and safe.
A sense of being loved.
A sense of togetherness.
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