away for christmas and new year

sorry for lack of updates but now i am currently spending my winter break in malaysia.
will be back on 6th jan.

happy new year !!!

怪癖几个

受到小娴的影响，我也来写写我的一些怪癖。

最近喜欢一边摸一些毛毛的东西一边入睡，如：毛毛抱枕，毛巾，还有少爷的脚。

喜欢把自己的脸颊贴在少爷的颈项，喜欢那种莫名的安心感。

想东西时会不知不觉地咬指甲。

生气时会无法自拔地把自己的头发弄得像鸟窝一样。

心情不好时，会与邵默一边吃巧克力布丁，一边告解。

喜欢在起床后打扫房间。

超爱穿裤袜。

喜欢趴在少爷的身上睡觉。

冬天时，宁愿在走半小时也不愿意骑十分钟的脚踏车。

我会把愤怒藏在心中，变成对自己的失望和感伤。

看到月亮，心情会莫名地变好。

原来你什么都不想要

最近都在听一些旧歌。
我不是一个特别怀旧的人，不过，有些歌真的是越听越有味道。
今天都在听孙燕姿的“橄榄树”与“原来你什么都不想要”。
越听越想哭。尤其是“原来你什么都不想要”，听得我都快要流泪了。
燕姿不像阿妹，用尽全身的力气去呐喊，好像就快边临缺堤崩溃。
她看似一滩平静的池水在幽幽地诉说。
其实，她正在努力压抑快要满溢出来的感情。

今晚，听得特别有感觉。

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Now I finally know why old grandmas like to knit.
Sweaters, cardigans, vests, scarfs ...

There are 2 essential requirements to knit :
1) A lot ,a lot of time.
2) A lot, a lot of love.

I started to knit a winter scarf during my autumn break.
It's the most basic patterns and I am supposed to finish it before Christmas.
But, until now, I still haven't finished.
And I am not sure I will/ want to finish it.

Now I understand how it's like when someone is knitting.
You think of the person that you are going to give while knitting.
Think of the happy moments you spent together.
Think of the nice things he/she did or said to you.
Think of his/her lovely smile.
Those are the motivation that keeps you knitting.
So, I could say, I am knitting a scarf and at the same time, I am knitting my affection into it.
If you don't have the huge amount of love, how can you spend so much time and energy on something that is "suprisingly" not funny at all ?

It is also true to say that I can progress faster if I feel lotsa love.
So, it is also natural that I couldn't progress at all even I have the time if I was confused and unsure.

I wonder when will I finish knitting the scarf.
And who is going to receive it ?

a piece of cake

I know myself well.
I am not that kinda generous girl.
But I am trying very hard to be one, persuading myself day and night.

It is not anger that turned on the tear button.
Most of the time, it is the overflowing of disappointment.
Disappointment comes from expectations.
Maybe I am expacting too much from you.

I am trying to persuade myself to forgive and forget.
But, I am still an amateur.
All I can do, is asking for a piece of cake.
With the piece of cake as a reason to forgive, I am excluding every single reason not to forgive.
It is not the physical existence of the cake that matters, it is the meaning and reason of the cake that counts.
I wonder when will you start listening to my heart.

思いが届かなかったことについて、本当に残念です。

小娴的话

愛情總是讓我想起另外兩個字：鄉愁。

愛情多麼像一份鄉愁，當我遇到對的人，我終於知道，我為什麼會毫不理智地愛著他，我為什麼願意為他吃苦，為他改變自己？他就是我來的地方，也是我將會去的地方，是我久違，甚至是素未謀面的故鄉。他是沒法解釋，一解釋就讓我淚眼模糊的那份鄉愁。我像愛著自己的鄉愁那樣愛著他。

然而，多麼美好的愛情或婚姻也只是其中一個歸宿。
漫漫長途終有回歸，無論男人還是女人，終究要自我完成。
人生逆旅中最後的一片棲息地，並不僅僅是摯愛溫柔的懷抱與情深的訣別，也是回首的一座高樓。望斷高樓，這匆促的一生，我做了什麼？多少歡喜？多少惆悵，又多少懊悔？

我突然明白，歸宿是一個人的事。

秋天的回忆

秋天，真是个忙碌的季节呢。
一转眼，两个星期的秋假便过去了。真的是一转眼呢！
明天便要“清早起来，刷牙洗脸，背起书包，上学堂。”
要从温暖的被窝里爬出来，很痛苦的说。
没办法啦，顶硬上。

回顾一下秋天的美好记忆~♪

第一次来日本留学时认识的香港朋友，Emily与她的老公来日本度蜜月。
好久不见了，依然一样friend。看她与老公甜甜蜜蜜，真替她高兴！
我丢下我在病床的少爷，与昔日朋友大吃韩国烧肉。



以前在旅行社工作时的同事来日本出差，当然要招待一下。
Jaq从马来西亚带来了大家对我的爱，好不感动！

招待=观光+购物+大吃一餐！
在お台場玩到不亦乐乎！

趁秋天还没有离去，我和少爷到新宿御苑走了一趟。

真不愧是东京，去到哪里都是人山人海。


大家都在享受最后的一点温暖阳光。
（因为冬天的阳光...很难感受到它的温暖也）

野餐的夜餐，看书的看书，游玩的游玩。



新宿御苑的庭院。还不错吧？

由于我们来迟了，只能走马看花，匆匆地走过。
真不明白为什么新宿御苑要在4：30pm关园。

当然要与少爷留下一张合照。来，笑一个~ :)

无论在怎么喜欢，都得与秋天说bye-bye了。
希望明年的秋天可以在心仪的京都度过。