the first ordeal of the year ?

昨晚追看在机场买的实话小说，“Life and death in Shanghai",看到4点眼皮再也撑不开时才甘愿关灯睡觉。
加上外面下雨的关系，我睡到下午2点才甘愿起床。
一上网，已经在lab的少爷便msg我。
说了一些没关系的话之后，他终于切入正题。
他收到大学的联络，说他可以申请在大学附近的宿舍。
他也很烦恼每天都得花上2小时去上学。
少爷说，他想搬去那里。问我介不介意。

我当然介意。十分的介意。
现在我们住在同一个宿舍，有时一天都没见到一次面。
加上他在lab的时间也越来越长，我们也比较少一起吃晚饭了。
通常，我们只是在睡觉前我去他房间用吹风筒时聊一下当天的事情而已。

Being able to know that he is near to me, give me a sense of relief and security.
His existence is more than just a lover, somehow, he also functions as a subsidence.
After a long day out, knowing that I am coming back to place that belongs to us makes me relief.
Knowing that I can meet him at the end of the day sweeps away my tiredness.
I understand he is exhausted from his long-hour research and traveling time, I try my best to provide a peaceful environment.
I prepare dinner sometimes, bring over hot tea and dessert, refrain from complaining, try to talk about some cheerful things to keep his spirit up.
我想我这次真的是爱惨了。
maybe Jonny is right about me: I am such a 贴身药布.

Even though sometimes I am annoyed by his blunt behavior and saying,
Even though sometimes I hate he pays more attention to the monitor and tv rather than my conversation,
At the end of the day, we still embrace each other with love and forgiveness.

A sense of belonging.
A sense of relief.
A sense of secure and safe.
A sense of being loved.
A sense of togetherness.